And So It Begins...

Sitting in that cold, sterile room when the doctor said the words "you have cancer," I felt like the floor had dropped beneath me. In that instant, fear gripped me tightly, and all I could think about was fighting this thing growing inside me. My mind switched to survival mode, and I felt like a deer caught in headlights. That feeling of shock and terror lingered for what seemed like an eternity.

The process to get to a treatment plan felt painfully slow, pushing my anxiety to new heights. Prepare yourselves, those waiting periods are the worst. First, there was the wait for the initial consultation, followed by what seemed like endless weeks waiting for tests and their results. Knowing there was cancer inside me and not being able to do anything immediately was excruciating.

Two months post-diagnosis, my treatment path was laid out; I was scheduled for a therapeutic mammoplasty; a combination of a lumpectomy and breast reduction surgery, to remove the cancer from my left breast while also reshaping and reducing my right breast for symmetry. I was relieved because finally, something was being done. At that point, my thoughts hadn't even wandered to what I was about to lose. There was no space for grief, only the need to act.

The morning of the surgery was surreal. Standing in the hospital bathroom, looking at the markings that the surgeon had drawn, reality hit me hard. I've always cherished how confident I felt about my body, and here I was, about to change it forever. In the beginning, the thought of being cancer-free made any alteration feel justified. But after the surgery, seeing the scars for the first time, navigating the swelling, and feeling the slow process of healing, my emotions swung between deep gratitude and profound sorrow.

And just when I was settling into my new reality, during chemotherapy, another scare of a possible recurrence turned my world upside down again. Thankfully, it was just scar tissue and seroma, but such moments remind you of the fragility of peace during this journey.

Navigating cancer treatment is like riding a relentless rollercoaster. Your relationship with your body undergoes so many changes, it's hard to keep track. One day, you might find strength in your body's ability to heal, and the next, you're struggling to accept its new appearance.

Through it all, Breast Cancer Now became my anchor. Their helpline and “Here For You Volunteer” service helped me navigate the ups and downs of treatment. From deciphering medical terms to handling emotional spirals, their support was indispensable. Especially their “Someone Like Me” service, which connected me with a volunteer who had navigated similar turbulent waters. Knowing someone else had emerged victorious on the other side brought comfort and hope.

For those who might be embarking on this path, here are a few practical tips I gathered along the way:

• Bring someone with you to appointments: for emotional support and to help jot down vital information.
• Research responsibly: Stick to reliable sources to avoid unnecessary anxiety from inaccurate information.
• Talk about your feelings: Whether with a GP, family, or through support via cancer charities like MacMillan or Future Dreams, don't bottle up fears or concerns.
• Prioritize comfort post-surgery: Invest in a heart-shaped pillow, front-fastening bras, and loose, easy-access clothing.
• Stay informed about potential side effects: like lymphedema and manage them proactively with exercises and appropriate attire.

I've shared some products that helped me manage symptoms on the Products That Helped page, but everyone's experience is unique. Be sure to consult your oncology team for personalized guidance.

Breast cancer surgery is such a personal experience, and no two journeys are exactly the same. Whether it was smooth sailing or full of unexpected challenges, I’d love to hear about your experience. What helped you get through it? What surprised you the most? If you feel like sharing, drop a comment or send me a message, I know how much it helps to connect with others who have been through it.